Man im so tired. its really late at night. im talking to my boyfriend and not getting anything done like i planned to. not that i blame him...after all..i have been playing games and stuff to occupy my precious time

anyway...its really been a while since i blogged. I guess i just dont have the incentive to like i used to. Im so busy and im also really disappointed with how my computer science course turned out. very disappointed..im even jealous of a friend cos she did I.T and now has a really cool job... something i dont think i can do..oh well.. there are many tests and stuff going on as well.. Hmmm..i better say hi to all my friends..i havent seen them for ages or spoken to them much. i feel so bad..its not that i dont like my friends or wanna spend time with them...i guess im pretty busy but still...got quite a lot on my mind...quite a lot to think about and not enough time. well

just also wanna remind leslie how much i love him

ta ta for now!

In my spare time
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
[[12:26 a.m.]]

Man, I'm in another stage where im hooked on the games in http://www.orisinal.com. AND YES I GOT A HIGHSCORE!!!! Click on the picture to see it.



That was yesterday. Unfortunately the highscores jacked up overnight by quite a big amount. Dunno if i can match these new ones but im happy i got on the highscores list all the same.

Celebrations
Saturday, July 26, 2003
[[10:31 a.m.]]

Happy 18th birthday Yin!>_<

Thanks for inviting me to your party yesterday. And also...

Happy 18th Birthday to Spencer!!!

Both of you guys have been great friends to me. I hope that life will treat you many good things. Thanks for your friendship over the time that I've known you. Love you guys!

Japanese TV
Monday, July 14, 2003
[[03:36 p.m.]]

Been watching alot of japanese film, anime and dorama in the holidays.

This is the intro to Kamisama mou sukoshi dake (God, please give me a little more time).

Keigo: Everyone...has been dying from the moment they were born.
On a starry night...
(Sometimes) I'd like to ask the lover,
who is waiting for me in the next distant world...
Are you happy now?
Do you want to live? Do you want to die?
The difference between life and death,
is narrower than the mere 50cm width of a fence...

The instant you jump across it...
It's like a shooting star
falling between the crevices of a building...

I'm neither



Started watching the first 2 discs with Leslie last night. I feel bad for making him watch it with me but he 'said' he didnt mind. I needed him to translate the chinese subtitles for me. But had heaps and heaps for fun watching with him! Cant wait to watch the rest when he has the time. Its so much fun watching good dorama like Kamisama mou sugoshi dake with your boyfriend ne? Each of us getting pissed off at the other for staring/perving/exclaiming on Takeshi/Kyoko..hahah LEslie....hope you're not mad.

Also watched about 8-9 episodes of Chobits so far. It's so fun to watch! I shouldnt have judged it earlier for being a little girl type of show with those predictable and stupid love themes. Maybe its because I like Chobits for the portrayal of japanese boys and their hentai in the main character Hideki? Another theme I find prominent in modern japanese youths.



With similar themes of prostitution (to a very small degree) and sexually transmitted diseases (in Kamisama) which my parents find are 'good education for you kids'. No wonder they are so happy for me to watch it. They've been bugging me for ages. You'd think it was the other way. Anyway... all is good and my interest in Japanese culture of all kinds is increasing very much. No other culture can pull these themes off just as well as the Japanese do.

In general
Monday, July 14, 2003
[[02:57 p.m.]]

Holidays have been great! You get to relax, do what you want with the time that you have, sleep, watch anime and japanese dorama, have sleepovers and go to parties to see many friends, go netting and video games and spend time with your boyfriend. List of things to do is write to my host sister. Was thinking of doing some more webpage design but really dont see myself getting close to starting realistically. Also getting our new computer soon. The possibilities there are exciting. I'm going to download and burn, download and burn.

Sent this to Iin and she loved it a lot. I love you Iin!!!! She's so special.

Suzi just sent me this. Trust you mui mui!!

Never gonna leave your side
Thursday, July 3, 2003
[[12:39 p.m.]]

I really liked this song the first time I heard it. It's 'Never Gonna Leave Your Side' by David Beddingfield. I really love the words too.

I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
cos you are the one

I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child that lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are the words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know im home

They tell me that a man can lose his mind
Living in the pain
The call in times gone by
The crying in the rain
You know ive wasted half the time
And i'm on my knees again
till you come to me
yeah

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are the words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
I lay my head against your heart
I know im home
I know im home
I know im home

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when im lying in your arms
i know im home


Me and Leslie had a really wonderful and I dare say a very romantic evening on monday when we went to Fremantle for dinner. Then on Tuesday night we both went to Sharon and Terri's 18th bday which I thought was really great! Cant wait to be with my friends again. Maybe we'll have a sleepover or something. Yin's 18th is coming up too so I cant wait for her party either.

ARGH! My parents found out i scratched the car! they are sooo pissed off. Man! Dad was like..'thats 200$!!'..it really cant be that bad right?

Ooo OOooOO Ooo!!! I know what that song is Yoshi..its Reprise from Spirited Away Soundtrack! (Least i think thats what its called. Yeah "Sen to Chihiro no Kamikakushi" is one of the greatest movies ive ever seen. And isnt Haku great in dragon form?

Holidays!
Friday, June 27, 2003
[[11:59 a.m.]]

It's been a while since I blogged but I've been sooooo busy with exams and helping Leslie cos he's moving house and having his exams at the same time!... its been pretty hectic and even when im on the net, i dont get a chance to blog cos my computers a little bit crappy..yeah just a tad *note strong sarcasm*. Well just wanna tell everyone the news that i got into UWA and changing to Asian Studies/Commerce! I'm not sure what to expect there but there are going to be a lot of changes for me because of it. Nevertheless I hope everything goes well.

Want to go shopping for a new computer with my dad and brother on the weekend if i can. REally desperate for a new one for a long long time....my parents better empty their pockets for this..kekekek..

Spirited Away
Thursday, June 19, 2003
[[11:04 a.m.]]

YaY!!! I finally boaught my Spirited Away Limited Edition DVD!!! First of all, I always wanted it and was waiting for the release which was on June 11. So I guess im not too late cos i got it on the 17th? And secondly, it cheered me up from the traumatic experience of running over a magpie on my way to work. Watched part of it with my brother last night and even he was impressed with the animation. I'm sure that says something!

10,000 hits!
Thursday, June 12, 2003
[[04:05 p.m.]]

Wow..i never thought I would make it and in a way, it sure took a while! Hahaha..im so unpopular but I made 10,000 hits nevertheless. CONGRADULATIONS to me!

Stress-related
Thursday, June 5, 2003
[[01:35 p.m.]]

I dont usually do this 'plugging' thing but YUNA's blog was really pretty. So here's my first PLUG ever!

Although I'm not bored with this layout yet, I want to start another one. I'm running outta ideas for what I should use as layouts. Maybe I'll do like pictures of me or something..but cheh! who wants to see pictures of me?

Man..JAVA is the pits. Even though I work really hard in my Java unit, I study, I look through examples, i read the text book a few times over, i practice my algorithms, i even attempt the assignment. But still I'm not good at it and I dont know why! Why cant i write a program properly like I want to!!! ok..chucking a serious tantrum here but I guess I'm just not cut out to be a programmer. Sure its fun to learn *cough cough* and I've always wanted to program anyway but I guess DONT seem to be ABLE to DO it! Exam's coming up..*stress stress* I dont want to fail, i dont want to fail, as much as this unit is hard and fustrating, i dont want to fail. eek!

Waited for half an hour while assignments were individually handed out to the 300-400 or so students in the lecture theatre and realise my name isnt called out. So its either I have cheated and the lecturer wants to have a serious talk with me (eeek!!! i hope that I'm not one of those 6 who cheated!!!) or they havent marked the 10 or so assignments that were left. But I swear there was more than 16 people left in the lecture theatre. Checked this morning in my email to see if Mr Mike-LOTR-crazed dude has told me to see him, but considering I havent got that email yet, I guess that means its an all-clear and i havent been accused of cheating. Went up to get my assignment back...person there told me to come back in a couple of hours. So I did and a different person told me to come back on MONDAY!!! got my computer science unit assignment back though..and whoo hoo!!! i got 84%...so those late late nights in the computer labs were worth something. What a crazed 2-3 weeks its been for me.

Ok im going to quit complaining now

8 months already
Saturday, May 31, 2003
[[03:35 p.m.]]

It was me and leslie's 8th month. Another month anniversary yet again. But we got to spend a nice evening together after getting rid of John and some other friends. I was sooo scared for a moment because I thought he was going to join us and the both of them were teasing me in the car and made me feel really grumpy...grrr... But then after me and Les drive around to see what we could do, we ended up going back to John's place to lend a vcd to watch together!!! so me and les minus John watched the first half of Chocolat.

Like an angel
sent from above
you came into my world
and gave me your love

Feelings and emotions
i've never felt before
but you have shown them to me
You've made my heart soar

You're there to watch over me
and pick me up when I'm down
I thank God every day
for the special love I have found

What else could I ask for
I think I have a clue
The only thing I could ever want
is love only from you

Love you les!!! man..what a love sick couple we are.

Weekend
Wednesday, May 28, 2003
[[12:23 a.m.]]

Was going to blog about this but didnt have time. On Saturday, I ate lunch at Chinese restaurant with Leslie's family which was really nice of them i thought. After that, we visited Leslie's new home he's moving into soon. Nice old house and visited his bedroom last, and boy what a big bedroom it was. Maybe will have a little area just for me? =P..I thought the house was pretty great and met the 2 of the neighbours as well. After that, shot off to uni to work on my software technology assignment and the rest is blah. Seems like such a boring entry this is..kekeke

Well tonight, went to gelare in southlands with chung and co but ended up going to applx gelare instead where just a whole bunch of people, most of whom i dont really know gathered around this big circle. Found out that Chung is now refered to as Michael. AiyAH! didnt think you were serious when you wanted that name! but where the hell did Josh come from. Chung is not a Josh, he's not even a Michael. It's going to be so weird but Chung's still Chung rite? kekekehahaha...serious..

Will go shopping with Yin after the exams. Y do i have 5 units when everyone has 4. Its absolutely ridiculous. No eletives or options, all 5 are core and i dare say 3 are extremely difficult, 1 is just rubbish and the other i do not need! Only one more assignment and one more test b4 the dreaded exams. Man! and i handed in my assignment 10 mins late because there was this huge huge line for printing and I dont think they collected it and thats just crap! Not 1am yet and im tired...tired...zzZZZzz....

Woe of programming
Monday, May 19, 2003
[[11:25 p.m.]]

A friend told me I should adapt good program debugging techniques.

..I pretend I am a number..

Handed in my Computer Science assignment with around 50 pages (?) of pseudocode, Java and IJVM. *phew* though it was only half completed, I did what I could in the many late nights I stayed at uni in the last week.

Now another grueling week with 2 more assignments, and one, i believe to be similar to the first. All dued next Monday.

Before I needed to hand in my sheaf of pages, Les had to help me find a stapler/hole punch to put all my work together. It's cos the library bindery and all other offices are closed at 5pm.

Well till next time, I'll be in a perpetual brainless state working till the last hours of the night, or early hours of the day, coding till i will doubt the existence of my own sanity.

Too much work!
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
[[11:11 a.m.]]

Man..I'm having so much trouble with my uni assignments. They are sooooooo hard and I dont understand and everyone else seems to understand while I dont! It's not fair! Whats with that anyway? Why cant I get my mind around it? How am I supposed to expect to be able to do programming for applications and so on in the future if I cant even do simple ones that divide numbers and print them out onto the screen??? How are all you UWA people doing anyway? bet you dont have to do assembly. Its just too low-level for me. sigh.... what to do? what to do?

Tuesday, May 6, 2003
[[12:37 a.m.]]

Does anyone know where I can find mp3 files for songs from God, please give me more time (Kami sama, mou sugoshi dake). It could help too if I knew the names of the songs.

Missing Japan and Web-life
Thursday, May 1, 2003
[[08:38 a.m.]]

Sorry about the previous depressing entry. I had problems but I guess I'm ok now. So how is everyone? Hm... I feel I need to meet more people, preferably girls who can speak japanese, who blog and who generally likes all jap stuff =P. Feel like making a 'Do you want to be my friend?' form. Hahahah.. I sound like a loner!! What am I saying?..

I really feel like doing some serious website stuff again. Surfing for more blog friends and getting my own friends to have their own blog but not wanting to have to teach them how to. Thank goodness for Yin a couple of years ago who I influenced to start blogging but then it turned out she taught me how to use pitas in the first place. Hahaha... really miss those days.

I MISS JAPAN!!!!
Enough said.....

Lonely
Friday, April 25, 2003
[[02:54 p.m.]]

Thanks Chung for listening to me and trying to help me with my indecisiveness yesterday. I guess I need someone to beat my head in sometimes dont I? Really helped me yesterday you know. We should see each other more I reckon. Anyway...you made me realise what I'm missing out on and maybe you can help me change that.

Need to see you more too. Really sorry about neglecting you. I know that I have and its like I put our friendship on hold sometimes. I'll try to promise myself to visit you in the very near future..and more frequently at that.

I guess I also learnt a lot of things when me and Leslie had our little break from each other. I cant imagine living a life without you and I know that you'll always be there for me.

All in all, guess I really have to do a few things and put a bit more effort into shaping my life. There are always people I can count on and talk to for various reasons. I think maybe I'm finding it easier and easier to open up to people instead of bottling things up inside due to my social nature with others. In a way, I feel lonely because it seems sometimes that no matter who is there with you..you just gotta do things on your own. People and friends are there to help you only if you go out and find them yourself, and even then, its all up to you. Guess cant expect to have the decisions made for me anymore or to be influenced into a certain path or opinion. Bout time I got my own. I'm starting to discover a new kind of loneliness.

Photos, laughs and bloodnoses
Tuesday, April 22, 2003
[[09:01 p.m.]]

I actually got a bloodnose a couple of nights ago! The first one I've ever had!..this is really nothing to blog about really..sorry..HAhahahah

Had dinner with my family for my parents 20th wedding anniversary. It's hard to think that my parents have been together that long (or short). Congradulations to them both

Today is my brother, Tim's birthday. Happy 16th bro!!!..Hope you liked the dinner and icecream cos i sure did..along with the braised steak Leslie got him many many cans of! What an idea! So many celebrations...

Today, met up with Sandra from Sydney and got some photos off her. Met up with about 4 of her friends and had lunch with them at Metro Food Court. Hung out with the twins and their cousin (forgot her name) too. You can see the photos and the lovegetti we took in my new Photo page I quickly whipped up. In the city, I fell in love with this white dress in Skiva ($90) and it was my size and the only one left. I would have loved to buy it but running short on cash...*sobs*

Oh yeah! CHECK THIS PHOTO OUT!!!. Doesnt he look like a certain Edison Chen?...friend of a friend of a friend so I dont know him at all..but pictures only up temporarily..if i remember to take it down. I was laughing sooooooo hard when i saw it though.. kkeekhAHahHAhhhEhhe

A sad day
Thursday, April 17, 2003
[[01:26 p.m.]]

I'm so upset. After I got off the phone with Leslie, I saw my most beautiful budgie dead on the floor of the cage. As soon as I saw her lifeless body there, I immediately burst into tears and cried that hiccup sort of cry. Worst of all, I dunno how she died but there was like a pool of blood there. It couldnt have been the cat next door. And she couldnt have choked, died of old age, sickness or stress. So me and mum came to the painful conclusion that maybe Rio pecked her to death. I shouldnt have put him in the cage with the 3 others. Well mum buried Angel in the backyard. She died at the age of about 9 years.

Well on a happier note, Sandra, the girl I met at Sydney who took me around is here in Perth for Easter! So hopefully I can go out to lunch with her. She wants to give me some photos too =P

A new layout? About time!
Tuesday, April 15, 2003
[[12:52 p.m.]]

Now that I've got my uni easter/study break, I have time to finish this darn layout. My skills just arent as up to scratch these days. I dunno what it is, but this is the best I can do *shrugs*. Check out my mugshot and that good looking guy next to me..woohoo!

Well I'm a little phased out today. Must be all the uni work and finishing this @#$%^@% layout not to mention a very hectic weekend! Hope things are calmer now but who knows these days..with what the world is coming to..hahaha.

Somebody sign my gbook please...its very empty. I gotta finish this Communication Skills assignment. Its got to be my worse unit!!! Had a Calculus mid-semester test last week, got my others coming up too. Hope I did well *cross fingers*. Getting Yoshi to help me write my letter to my host sister whom i havent contacted for more than 6 months...eeeekkk!!!! Azusa's going to forget me..=((((. But thanks Yosh..for helping me out sooo much..very handy to have a Japanese friend.

Oh yeah..I just realised that Joanne didnt go to your party last time..how come? Well it was also good to see both of you again =))))